The Continuous Drip

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2011-02-14T11:41:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines Day

2011-02-14T11:40:00.000-08:00

"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." There are a lot of broken hearts out there for Valentines Day. There is someone out there who is pursuing you and wants to bring healing and restoration.

Did you hear that? There is a God who can restore your spirit. Who else is capable of such wonders. I challenge you to pray and ask God to show himself to you this week. Let him work and your life will change.

James' Garden

2010-11-07T15:34:00.000-08:00

Waking in a garden, looking to see who was there

A feeling of love surrounded me from everywhere

A sound came from me; it startled me to hear my own voice

No more pain “hallelujah”

I heard the angels sing and rejoice

Looking around the never ending flowers

Beauty was all I could see

An angel said this garden was created for me

God planted the seeds before the earth was ever made

To make sure I would have my own garden to run and play

I can still hear your cries from down below

Your tears water my garden and it continues to grow

Thank you for your never ending love

From my garden I will continue to watch over you from up above

When you go to visit my tree

I will be laying in my garden thinking of you while you remember me

Cassandra Kaye Schafer ~ Garduno

In Memory of James P Kurtz April 22, 2009 ~ September 1th, 2010

The Last Dance

2010-11-07T15:30:00.000-08:00

Worn and weary too tired to press on

An endless battle you’ve been fighting for so long

Often sitting silently watching you drift away

Choking on the word goodbye still something I cannot say

It wasn’t that I was afraid of you breaking don’t you see

To hold you in my arms would only break me

One tries to let go as another hangs on

Haunting was the melody as we sang the last song

I’ll pull you in close for it will be my last chance

James do me the honor can I have this dance

Cassandra Kaye Schafer ~ Garduno

I wrote this for my precious Baby James' prayer vigil. I was always afraid of holding him with all his tubes. On September 18th, 2010 I got to hold him one last time.

On a New Journey

2010-04-30T09:28:00.000-07:00

Nervous not knowing what a waits for me but I am confident that my new journey will not be a waste. I need to be packing yet I am putting it off. I am off on my first women’s retreat and a bit nervous leaving the family behind. I will be without any communication from the outside world. Excited and terrified. I have not had to go without any form of communication in a long time, finding it weird that I will just have to unplug.

Keeping faith in a world with limited humanity

2010-03-08T06:52:00.000-08:00

I look at he the fading humanity today and my heart aches. We were designed to be love and to give it freely. Yet over a course of time we turned to look inside instead of outside. People’s hearts have been hardened and they no longer can see blessings when God is pouring them down from heaven. People take for granted that their lives will go on tomorrow. We were never promised tomorrow so why do we waste the day? I admit I am guilty of it. There has been numerous times I turned away my child’s affection so I could watch TV or have some “alone” time.

We are always asking God to make the world a better place and he continually does. He places angels in our lives to help us wake up out of our self absorbed induced sleep. I look at James Kurtz and Ben Page and know that God has placed them into my live. When I prayed for the world to be a better place God created them. Not one person who has come into contact with these boys has not been affected deeply by their stories. We may not know how much longer they have but we cherish every moment they are here with us and know to be with these children you are watching God’s work in various people’s lives.

I pray continually for their healing for the Glory of God and not doctors. Yet in the end these boys might not make it. Despite the odds I still have faith. As Beth Moore states faith knows that God has the power to do something even though he might choose not to. I do know every day Ben and James fight miracles are happening. Continue to watch the story of these boys unfold and open your hearts to others pain out there. Don’t close your eyes to sadness or one day you will no longer feel and that is terrible when you can become numb or indifferent to others in crisis.

Don’t forget to thank God daily for your healthy loved ones. Cherish these angels and the ones that God has placed in your lives. As always continue to pray for the blessing and health of others. Don’t let the world’s ways rob you of your humanity.

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2010-02-15T20:04:00.001-08:00

Living inside my head

Waking to dreams

When does reality end?

Is it really what it seems?

Drifting along the waters

No longer can see the shore

Unlocking the madness

Trapped behind the door

Restlessness is often

Leaving nothing to explore

Living inside my head

Lost it all

A tiny care in the world

Left me small

Water swallows me

I continue to drown

Gurgling is a choke

No longer with a sound

As the tide pulls me down

Looking for arms that are

No longer around

Cassandra K Garduno

Runaway Dreams

2010-02-15T20:02:00.001-08:00

I fell into a dream, harder than I should

I would wake up only if I could

I hear voices talking to me

Trapped in my mind, won't someone wake me please

Paralyzed by an unspeakable fear

Wondering if I am still here

No longer with a voice, I can no longer shout

Help me in this dream like state I need a way out

My heart threatening to explode as it races

A hellish realization with too many faces

Life filled with distortions

Semi conscience things come alive with contortions

I can hear, but I can't move or speak

A silent cry, no one to hear me weep

Trapped in a prison, I'll wait and see

My dreams up and ran off with me

Cassandra K Garduno

Ebb

2010-02-15T20:01:00.000-08:00

Deeper, deeper I ebb and fall.

A child once again helpless and small.

Slowly in my head the walk fades into a crawl.

In my dreams I can escape my despair and woe.

Into slumber there I must go.

Deeper, deeper my mind is at ease.

Only in my world of slumber can I find peace.

Restlessness sets in and I must implore.

Through the many rooms in my head I begin to explore.

Deeper, deeper I become numb.

Chase away the nightmares before they come.

To escape deeper into my head I must run.

Cassandra K Garduno

Child of Jesus

2010-02-15T19:58:00.001-08:00

Child of love know that you came from heaven above

Child of Jesus let the Lord guide you in your ways

Child of faith always pray at the end of the day

With your mouth closed listen closely for His voice

With you eyes open always look to make the right choice

With your arms outstretched for Him you must always reach

There are lessons for you in life the He is trying to teach

Use Jesus as your model all through your life

He will be your rock in good times and in strife

In this life never be less than kind

Know the wherever you go Jesus won’t be far behind

He gave you His love and His dedication

Jesus is the reason you have complete salvation

Your eternal life is something you can anticipate

One-day angels for you will open up heaven’s gates

Until then keep focused on Jesus so you may never stumble

In life always try to be modest and humble

Always know for you He has set a path

May your life be joyous and never forget to laugh

Cassandra Kaye Garduno

Boy Wonder

2010-02-15T19:50:00.000-08:00

Gabriel never ceases to amaze me. The boy who hates to tie his shoes is always constantly playing let's make a deal, just amazed me. We were at school waiting for the bell to ring. Mass chaos on the playground kids running around and Gabriel was among them. Suddenly he holds out his arms to his friend Jacob and says stop. Then he continues on to say to him " Jacob your shoes are untied, your going to get hurt." Gabriel bends down and ties both shoes for Jacob.

Contractions

2009-11-24T08:58:00.000-08:00

The lightning more frequent
I feel the rain
As the labor continues
so does the birthing pains
In a world that is restless
Daily we lose sleep
Driven on by desire
we are left breathless
Ignoring the cries of
our soul
As the flood continues
on the streets
The smells of defilement
leave an awful stench
No matter how much we bath
purity forever side benched
When does one realize he is empty
and not whole
As the contractions deepen
so does the race for our souls

Cassandra K Garduno

End of Days

2009-11-24T08:52:00.001-08:00

Tick Tock echoes the clock
In an age going so fast
Spiritually we are slow
Morally bankrupt
Screaming "Where did God go?"
We have given away our power
Hours no longer delay
The devil has formed a playground
Around the clock he continues to play
Faster and faster we go now
How do we even slow down
Time is running out
Let the blind open their eyes
Soon you will realize
Corruption continues breeding
contempt and despise

Wild Olives

2009-11-24T08:49:00.000-08:00

Wrapped in your arms of love
I rest right here
When the storms of the world are raging
there is none to fear
Cast away my worried and my faults will
disappear
Surrounded by peace
Yeshua, dries away my tears
Biding time in a land far from home
Although we walk with no one
We stand not alone
In a world of corruption no one left to
cast the first stone
One day the hold of evil will be shackled
and overthrown
On my knees I pray for the
strength of Israel
El Rachum remember your promise
restore hope for those whom fell
Let us walk amongst the wild
olives on the narrow trail
With praise and triumph
let hatred bid farewell

Pour Down

2009-11-24T08:42:00.000-08:00

Although it's all I've ever known
You can hardly call this place a home
I refuse to stay behind in the comforts of my pain
Reaching out to you Lord, pull me from this disdain
I am barely breathing,
Kept alive it's you love I'm receiving

Pour down on me
Wash away the pain
that continues to stain

Pour down on me
Bring forth light out of darkness
It's your face I wish to see
Jesus, pour down on me

I am lost in sleep and cannot wake
Misplaced in the world how much more
can I take
Traveled down a road that's bee trampled on
Lost and lonely can you help me belong
Drenched in water, soaking wet
Envelope me Lord, to make me forget

Pour down on me
Wash away the pain
that continues to stain

Pour down on me
Bring forth light out of darkness
it's your face I wish to see
Jesus pour down on me

Drenched in water, soaking wet
Envelope me Lord, to make me forget

The Continuous Drip

2009-11-14T21:57:00.000-08:00

Rain keeps falling and I don't know why
How could I ever keep those tears from your eyes
Beaten down by deceptions and tongue twisting lies
Crying baby give me one more try
Divine inspirations
Late night conversations
Overwhelmed by tingling sensations
No one there buy you and me
Sitting by a lake the only view we see
Walking on the platform holding hands
How you never let me drown I could never understand
Thinking of days of innocence my breath starts to slow
People often wonder why I left you where did you go
It wasn't that you were imperfect, your just not the one for me
Even though I broke you heart, it was mine broken don't you see
Through my eyes another tear beings to slip
I am lost and lonely in the continuous drip

Cassandra K Garduno