James' Garden

Waking in a garden, looking to see who was there


A feeling of love surrounded me from everywhere

A sound came from me; it startled me to hear my own voice

No more pain “hallelujah”

I heard the angels sing and rejoice

Looking around the never ending flowers

Beauty was all I could see

An angel said this garden was created for me

God planted the seeds before the earth was ever made

To make sure I would have my own garden to run and play

I can still hear your cries from down below

Your tears water my garden and it continues to grow

Thank you for your never ending love

From my garden I will continue to watch over you from up above

When you go to visit my tree

I will be laying in my garden thinking of you while you remember me

Cassandra Kaye Schafer ~ Garduno

In Memory of James P Kurtz April 22, 2009 ~ September 1th, 2010

The Last Dance

Worn and weary too tired to press on


An endless battle you’ve been fighting for so long

Often sitting silently watching you drift away

Choking on the word goodbye still something I cannot say

It wasn’t that I was afraid of you breaking don’t you see

To hold you in my arms would only break me

One tries to let go as another hangs on

Haunting was the melody as we sang the last song

I’ll pull you in close for it will be my last chance

James do me the honor can I have this dance

Cassandra Kaye Schafer ~ Garduno

I wrote this for my precious Baby James' prayer vigil.  I was always afraid of holding him with all his tubes.  On September 18th, 2010 I got to hold him one last time.